I am a criminal of this.
I am a criminal of this.
I. must. be. faster!!!
This morning has been so quiet, lord I wish it would last longer. I went running, so far that would four days. I’m finding that my body is actually eager to be worked out. No cramping, which may mean I need to push myself harder. Aggh, I don’t want to. But goals are goals, and a women doesn’t run away from them.
Aside from my day to day issues, I’m supper happy that I received the hard cover of my first book. It’s just proof, and I’m ashamed of some of the mistakes. Still I don’t care, I did it, and I”m going to do a hundred more times. Until one of my books are published and sitting in a store.
There is something I’m wanted to put out there, “Dear white people.” is a movie that think everyone should go see, and trust me it will be funny, as well as eyes opening. Also support them, it’s nice to support a wealthy man, but it means more to the beggar…well sometimes it does.
Anyway enjoy your day, and yes I will eventually start another story.
So like I said I’m making some life changes, you know I’ve been thinking and I’m just not down with being a size sixteen. I know, I know I am not in any way, shape or, form saying that skinny is better, or I don’t do my bigger self.
I just want a change, and the thing I can change on my own without pouring out hundreds of dollars is my body. My goal, is to bee the same jeans size as beyonce.
Lol, I know what you’re thinking but I’m 5’8 , and 195 now. I want to be 5’8 and my healthy weight of 160. I want to acheive the best me I can.
While doing this, I can also continue my path towards my writing and schooling.
Ah, so much to push on and not give up on.
I know there are two sides out there, the “accept yourself” side and the “fix yourself” side.
Truth: It doesn’t matter how much you lose, or how much you change. If you are not Happy with your inside. By insides I mean your spirit, your soul. You have to come to a state of peace, whether it be meditating, running, quitting that horrible job. You can only come to peace with yourself. My grandmother used to say, “The devil is busy all the time.” So I figured If I became twice as busy I’d be okay…well seem’s to be working out.
The scary thing about us humans, is that we are so powerful and able at any minute to let go. You think your stuck but there is not such a thing as stuck, simply stagnant. We have to overcome so much as humans, blacks, and women. There is no reason to tell ourselves no. Even when everyone, even your own people are telling you, you can’t do something. Its a lie, because they are trapped and don’t want you to be free. Go to school if you want, start that business, write that book. So what if your mother , sisters, or friends, think the ideas crazy. Go for it, change is ever on the rise. We are the proof of it.
BEE POWER ACTIVATE!!
Beautiful film, starring a plethora of famous and well known actors and actresses. I’ve been kind of dead lately on here, due to getting some things in my life in order. You know, cleaning out my closet.
Yesterday was like a break day for me and my family. Since my mother had been raving about seeing this film since it was mentioned on NPR. We went to see it, it didn’t allude me that the movie was in some small theater in the depths of Nashville, we got lost twice trying to find it.
But luckily we did, and the showing only had maybe ten people. Still it was great, it was as if everything I’d ever wanted to write was sitting on screen talking to me.
I’ve often wandered to myself, if I could give forth a story of a African (black women) in a place of that time period. This film has hardened my resolve to do so.
I highly suggest seeing this film, because there is also other things of interest, like the fact the belle is held back by her color. Event though she is of rank and wealth. And Bette played by Sarah Godon is held back simply because she is a women, and few other things. But I wouldn’t ruin it for you.
I hope many people go out and see this film, and by the movie. It is the pride and prejudice for the black female, “finally!!”
Typical life is boring
Standing still is insane
I’ve found my rhyme
Sweet and Gentle,
boy it’s a mm mm treat
these lips speak truth
don’t forget your coat.
On this ride, you might get chilled
Taking away pride
lets not hide
lips covered in pink
eyes tight in weariness
filled with tenderness
ah, that my love
is our first kiss
Yes, so I’m finally settled and back from korea…it was worth every dime, actually if I could have stayed there a little longer I would have, But like every thing you have to come back and earn another vacation. So I’m supper pumped working on the hardcover version of my book. So that people can order it online.
Also had someone review my story on Fanfiction, and I get this all the time, because I spend a limited amount of grammar and spell checking energy on those stories. whether I speak English or if I’m under twenty.
I do it on purpose because my goal is to be a “Real” writer, I might want to use my idea later, so if someone copies it, they only get the rough draft, the better version is always on my laptop.
It’s just a way to keep control of my stuff, I have no problem sharing, but to keep something stupid form coming up, I make it hard for others to use my work for profit on my end.
I’m actually twenty four, what an exiting age huh.
WEll the BEE is BACK stings and bee queens!
I wrote this on another site, so please enjoy!
I’m sitting at a after school, waiting for my friend to get off. Ironically enough it’s raining outside and I’m having this moment of quiet solitude, and this is actually the best moment here. I don’t know about others but when I travel to another country, my goal is not to see the spectacular sites. It’s instead to become one with the countries flow and people, going to the bar that everyone goes to on Sunday. Hanging with the big unnies and talking about the annoying jobs, even catching the train can bring a moment of pure enjoyment. Also I’ll finally be able to write an AMBW story, with out faking everything.
I don’t know if anyone has recently bought my book, but there will be a second one coming out soon, it’s a story involving a vampire. Yes, I went ahead and wrote a story of a black Bella….thought I personally think mine will be better, and it’s not at all the same…aside from maybe the desperate romance.
I’ve stupidly put it up on this site, and hilariously had it swallowing up space on everyone’s dashboard, so I know I for a fact y’all didn’t even read it. ‘Cause I wouldn’t touch if I didn’t have to.
So anyway, so far most foreigners are teachers, but i actually met an African-american male who was interning here in Taegu for physical therapy.
So that just shows you that the other side of the world has allot more going on then allot of us thought it would.
I am so looking forward to the chance to actually work here, if I ever get such a chance I will definitely let you guys know.
So as usual BEE-Z is on her way out, and I hope everyone is hitting there day hard, and pushing straight for the dreams.
Cake time, cream cheese strawberry cake time !